You know, if I weren¹t a Christian, and merely an observer, I might say that what goes around comes around such as in Hannarabi¹s Code of Law. Of course, Jesus told us to disregard that law and to learn how to turn the other cheek.

I have seen so many people desperate to have children and are bearen, and so many irresponsible women from mindless teenagers all the way to power hungry adults. I have yet to see a good reason to get an abortion from these women, yet they always seem to come up with a good excuse. Invariably, it¹s just the desire to not have their life changed because of the actions they so carelessly decided to venture in. I also know that most and I say MOST of these women have multiple abortions, not just one. My children are survivors. My son came from a good time with a man that I thought I loved, but now realize I didn¹t even know him. It was a sin, yes, but a greater sin is to kill your child. All of my friends encouraged me to get an abortion. One girl even set up the appointment for me, and was almost
pushing me out the door to get it. Others explained how painless it was and within 2 days it felt like nothing happened. Nothing happened? You just killed your child and you have no remorse? One even tried to explain to me that she asked God to forgive her BEFORE she went through with the abortion
and she was convinced He understood.

The funny thing is at the time I was agnostic. I had been a Catholic all of my life, but I hadn¹t been practicing or even believing in many years. Yet, something just compelled me that I must keep this child. He is now 8 years old and attends  Catholic school. He has been stating for years that he wants to be a priest. Born of sin, he has redeemed me. Maybe this is why I had to keep my child. I¹ve also been blessed with moderate wealth, a good marriage, a wonderful occupation, and it really doesn¹t seem like I¹ve worked too hard to achieve it. My friends that had to get the abortions because they couldn¹t support a child, or weren¹t ready to commit, I really
haven¹t seen them do too much with their lives. Hopping from bed to bed trying to find love, when all I have to do is look at my son¹s eyes and know what real love is to have and to receive it. Money? Well, in the end, I met a very successful man that loved me and my child the way we were, and I love him, too. The guy that got me pregnant? I guess that he has been
running from collection agencies to this day, even though he never paid a cent of child support and willingly gave up the rights to my husband so he wouldn¹t be financial liable for his son.

I cry every time I think of another child that could have gone to the loving arms of a couple that wants to raise a child so badly. So, my heart knows I should forgive and feel sorry for these women that go at risk and kill themselves when they get an abortion, but it is very hard for me to do.

Please pray for my heart so that I may open it up to my enemies as willingly as I open it up to my friends,
Dianna